No one should have to be afraid.
But what happened when I’m afraid
I’m afraid of sleep because I know you will meet me in my dreams.
I am afraid of being alone because you made me a double statistic.
What happens when the numbers are one in four women before graduating college.
What happens when this pain becomes too much for me.
What happens when I find you.
You told me I look familiar but you just can’t remember, you may have been a “little drunk”
I don’t think The word drunk describes your actions.
What other drugs did you take that day?
What happens when I learn things about you
Your name.
I know your job is important.
I know you are a Pisces.
I know you graduated last spring.
You were a student at the time but you got to graduate a month later
Little do you know I worry about graduation and if I’ll ever make it.
Little do you know while you were celebrating the graduation I was in the hospital on suicide watch.
Because of you I struggle every fucking day.
But best of all
because of you I found a support system.
People who really care about me.
Because of you I am a bad ass women.
Because of you I will fight harder then ever to succeed in life.
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